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confessions [13 Feb 2005|09:29pm]
[ mood | dont see me... please ]

hi, my name is jessica, and i have a problem. i seem to have this thing with relationships where i can't help but get myself in trouble. no matter wat i do, i cant seem to keep everything running smoothly. i messup even when i know it's wrong. i say things and do things that i absolutely kno wont help me any. but i cant help but do it anyway... something makes me do it... some strange pull that i just can't  help but fulfill... so i let it feed and i do the deed and when it is done.. i feel worse than ever.

i seem to have this other problem where i tend to make friends whith people who somehow get pleasure out of rubbing the past in my face; and rubbing my mistakes, after i admit to them, in my face like i need someone to acknowledge my faults. and with me being emotional, it doesn't help one bit.


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[13 Feb 2005|09:16pm]
never said i did. Never say i will. I never said u said anything to anyone about Roly. I just said i don`t wanna fuckin talk about it. My life doesnt have to be shared with anyone. I do not have to tell you ever aspect of my sad pathetic fuckin life. I never ever said to anyone that i knew kevin more then anyone but i guarentee you never fuckin knew the shit he said about you after u guys broke up or how this is the re play about how him and aimee broke up in the fuckin first place. She made out with someone else. How about that.You know anything bout that. That`s why i jumpoed your fuckin shit about it Friday night. Because it was a replay about something that already fuckin happened. And even if your fuckin tipsy you know what hte fuck your doing, and with you useing that fuckin word love should know that if you love someone no matter how fuckin fucked up you are in teh back of your fuckin mind your remeber i have a boyfrined that i love. not oh im drunk i wont rmeber this in the morning. Cus heres a news flash .If your 'drunk' or 'tipsy' like you said you were Jessica.You wouldnt be able to replay the whole fuckin thing in your head and write it in your journal Saturday night.
anti artifical x (9:12:48 PM): So apprently you werent tipsy or drunk and you knew exacly what you were fuckin doing.
anti artifical x (9:12:53 PM): Thats not love sorri to tell you.
anti artifical x (9:13:21 PM): and before you curse at me and jump to conclusions make sure you read it over and understand what im fuckin saying.
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[29 Nov 2004|04:58pm]
[ mood | yay ]

§ omg again
kenzie, yet again, is mad kool (yes... ""mad"")
say hi::


(((wat a loser)))

yes so tell me wat u think and stuf so yea §

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okay [29 Nov 2004|04:16pm]
[ mood | erotic ]

this isn't about me but it is funnie

What Makes You Sexy?
by eva71
Sexy Body Part IsEverything
Special Talents AreEverything (Multi-talented)
Quiz created with MemeGen!

this is so not tru ((**cough, cough**))
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oh yes [29 Nov 2004|04:13pm]
[ mood | woot ]

What Makes You Sexy?
by eva71
Sexy Body Part IsYour Eyes
Special Talents AreKissing
Quiz created with MemeGen!
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[29 Nov 2004|04:01pm]
How long do I last in bed?
by DesideroAmor
Real Name
Birthdate (MM/DD/YY)
Favorite Color
Quiz created with MemeGen!
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omg [29 Nov 2004|03:52pm]
[ mood | blah ]

yay omg mackenzie's bacc on the kool list he got my icon on
i've been trying for like forever
and now i have it
can this day get any cooler?
...or not...
lol watever
omg this also means that i owe it to mackenzie to me writing in my lj again
seeing as i havent written in here since
i told ppl that thing that happened
and yea
now he's talking to himself
his hair's pink
that's cooler than him trying to tell everyone that it's ""red""
(we all kno the truth, like, give it up)
anyway so like yea
(now he thinks i want him to give "it" up)
((i kno it's stupid and athena's probably gonna be all disappointed and yea but i would if he asked.........................))

watever so like yea i'll try to write later


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[01 Nov 2004|11:49am]
§ omg life is so fucked up right now. mackenzie broke up with me on thursday (in a letter). he sayd that he realized like right after i asked him out that he wasn't truly ready for a relationship. i'll try to write more later. much love, the heart-broken jay-jay. §
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wow [18 Oct 2004|03:19pm]
[ mood | confused ]

bacc here again... my second home... dude, my ex boyfriend is still telling me he loves me and my old friend is over here telling me things like yea i sent him nice pics of things i found searching the web and he's telling me that they're nice but their nothing compared to my beauty or something like that. then he's saying how he misses me around his neighborhood and how he hasn't seen anything nice or beautiful (w/e) in a long time... dude i don't even think he knows about mackenzie and me... wow... i am so confused... and with having to keep an eye on jenn, it's not helping... oh yea, we (me kenzie, my sis, john, jenn, marcus and alexis) were hanging out at cc yesterday around pizza square and mackenzie decided to play that artic thunder game and guess wat jenn does..... she went on the bacc of it and starts trying to distract him in the game doing things like poking him and wat really got me mad was when she was all on his arm and sh*t... that pissed me off. trust me, john knows... he say how pissed i was and asked if i'd rather see him on the bacc instead of jenn (of course i sayd yea but she still stayed there). well, imma try and make the best out of the rest of my day AFTER i GET my DeAdJoUrNaL. when i get it i'll post it. til then i'll ttyl.

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wow [17 Oct 2004|10:48pm]

wow, i just spoke with kenz and i told him that im in love with him and stuf

yea i really think he may be the true "one" for me...

i dont think i can feel any more in love that i do right now (unless he pulls something incredible)

well, much love. laters

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yay [16 Oct 2004|11:04pm]
[ mood | yay ]

i went to the movies yesterday to see team america world police with mackenzie.twas very fooni... lol....... teeheehee.... later

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blah stuf [15 Oct 2004|04:00pm]
[ mood | ick ]

wow... im at mackenzie's house and there's this grl here that wanted to fight me for going out with him and im sposed to pretend to be her friend... this sux!!

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Welcome Jay Jay Rocker [15 Oct 2004|11:08am]
[ mood | bouncy ]

This is JayJay's new journal ...

Jay Jay aka Jessica C.

Mackenzie ♥s JayJay

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